My every thought

(Song Lyrics)
By Trainspotting



My every thought of you
Is the emptiness inside of me
My every thought of you
Comes on every thought of me

My every thought of true
Deep within my rot
Leaving me to spare
My you on every thought

My every thought of you
My every second thought
Sucks my need for air
My helpless need I bought

My every thought of you
My emptiness in me
My very toxic core
My fading will is she

My reason for this blue
My insides shrinking out
Bare inside my thoughts
My endless soundless shouts

My every thought of you
The emptiness I see
My every thought of you
This aching sense of me

Wise, Wicked & Wonderful Words.....





(Modigilani Reproduction) By Me.


"If you are going to be able to look back on something and laugh about it, you might as well laugh about it now."
Marie Osmond

"Be bold in what you stand for and careful what you fall for."
Ruth Boorstin

"We're all in this alone."
Lily Tomlin

"Those who don't know how to weep with their whole hearts don't know how to laugh either."
Golda Meir

"Love never dies of starvation, but often of indigestion."
Ninon de L'Enclos

"I wrote the story of myself. It's all about a girl who lost her reputation and never missed it."
Mae West

"Woman's virtue is man's greatest invention".
Cornelia Otis Skinner

"Sex is never an emergency."
Elaine Pierson

"It's the good girls who keep the diaries, the bad girls never have the time."
Tallulah Bankhead

"While forbidden fruit is said to taste sweeter, it usually spoils faster."
Abigail Van Buren

"Some of us are becoming the men we wanted to marry."
Gloria Steinem

"There is glory in a great mistake."
Nathalia Crane

"A woman is like a teabag, only in hot water do you realize how strong she is."
Nancy Reagan

"You grow up the day you have your first real laugh - at yourself."
Ethel Barrymore

"People who are always making allowances for themselves soon go bankrupt."
Mary Pettibone Poole

"Show me a woman who doesn't feel guilty and I'll show you a man."
Erica Jong

"Woman are repeatedly accused of taking things personally. I can't see any other way of taking them."
Marya Mannes

"Enemies are so stimulating."
Katherine Hepburn

"The cure for anything is salt water - sweat, tears or the sea."
Isak Dinesen

"Everybody gets so much information all day long that they lose their common sense."
Gerturde Stein

"Hope is the feeling you have that the feeling you have isn't permanent."
Jean Kerr

"People are more fun than anybody."
Dorothy Parker

"It's all good!"
Us

Go grab the day.
S.

PAST CREATIVITY........PRESENT INSPIRATION TO COME.

BLUE

Sit in it?....Fine!...OUCH!!


But it feels good, better anyway.
I won't go into details but after reading a few of my fellow bloggers here I noticed it has been a weird year for everyone. So I offer you some of my favorite and definity appropriate quotes. Hope they bring wisdom, laughs and inspiration.
Hey and if you can add some of your own, go for it. All the better.
Cheers!

"When women go wrong, men go right after them." Mae West.
"If love is the answer, could you please rephrase the question?" Lilly Tomlin
"I can always be distracted by love, but eventually I get horny for my creativity." Gilda Radner
"Seeing a murder on television can help work off one's antagonisms. And if you haven't any antagonisms, the commercials will give you some. " Alfred Hichcock
"Don’t be so humble - you are not that great."- Golda Meir (1898-1978),
"Give me a museum and I’ll fill it."- Pablo Picasso (1881-1973)
"The longer I live the more I see that I am never wrong about anything, and that all the pains that I have so humbly taken to verify my notions have only wasted my time."- George Bernard Shaw
"Show me a sane man and I will cure him for you."- C. G. Jung
"Few things are harder to put up with than a good example."- Mark Twain
"For there is nothing either good or bad, thinking makes it so."
"I have an existential map; it has ‘you are here’ written all over it."- Steven Wright
In order to keep a true perspective of one’s importance, everyone should have a dog that will worship him and a cat that will ignore him."- Dereke Bruce
"The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it."- Oscar Wilde
"Victory goes to the player who makes the next-to-last mistake."- Savielly Grigorievitch Tartakower
"Happiness is good health and a bad memory."- Ingrid Bergman
"Opportunities multiply as they are seized."- Sun Tzu
"Do, or do not. There is no ‘try’."- Yoda,
"Become who you are."- Friedrich Nietzsche
"Ideas are like stars; you will not succeed in touching them with your hands. But like the seafaring man on the desert of waters, you choose them as your guides, and following them you will reach your destiny."- Carl Schurz
"If everything is under control, you are going too slow."- Mario Andretti
"When the only tool you own is a hammer, every problem begins to resemble a nail."
"I choose a block of marble and chop off whatever I don’t need."- Rodin (1840-1917)
"Better to light a candle than curse the darkness."- Chinese Proverb
"If you lose your temper, you’ve lost the argument."- Proverb
"Start every day off with a smile and get it over with."- W C Fields
"One of the greatest mistakes in life is to fear continually you will make one."
"Painting is easy when you don't know how, but difficult when you do."Edgar Dégas
"Those who can't laugh at themselves leave the job to others."
"If sex is such a natural phenomenon, how come there are so many books on how to?" Bette Midler
"The secret of getting ahead is getting started."Sally Berger
And many more.....to come.
Peace and Love

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND EVERYBODY...... FULL OF FUN AND PLAYFULLNESS!

RANT-Gotta get stuff out....
God..this year is just full of hard personal development. But I'm hanging in there. I put myself though an intense 'inner' cleaning if you will and openned my heart, all at the begining of the year. Hey- you can't go all the way if you don't open your heart..that's where all the baggage is really, (mine for sure). So-flood gates open and I have learned all these great techniques of keeping myself real, in the moment, be present, looking to my body for the answers, get out my head, etc..and I feel so much on a moment to moment basis and it's very hard!! Because I feel so intense. Like intensly sad or scared. Those feelings, sad and scared are the ones I've repressed so I feel those more often than most. I don't really have trouble being happy in small doses...or maybe I have been more generally happy and that's upped my scared and sad emotions..??Who knows-feel free to comment. But getting back to the sad and scared feeling...so I feel these emotions all the time and to tell you the truth I feel more vunerable and weak because of it.! Help! I'm working through all this stuff and growing and improving myself here and really, I don't like this vunerable stuff that's happening to me!
I'm writing all this in my blog because I know that there are many people going through this stuff this year too and thought I'd share my thoughts, concerns...maybe we can work through this stuff together. I'm reading a good book these days called "The Saint, the Surfer and the CEO..very good read. Those of us who have been going -taking MLS classes, well it's all the same philosophies- the differences are that it gives some alternate practices for achieving the same goal..Becoming Present in our lives and fullfilling our dreams. Pick it up!
The picture I posted is the way I feel today, really. A kind of envy of the child who is not bagged down with worries of the future or past and is just enjoying the moment. The mom is taking time to just "be there" with her baby. It's a peacefull picture.
Take care.
"The process of life should be the birth of a soul. This is the highest alchemy, and this justifies our presence on earth. This is our calling and our virtue."
-Henri Frederic Amiel

Run Hair Girl Run



On Saturday, Sept 9th 2006, one of my short films was screened in Toronto,
'Run Hair Girl Run'.

Synopsis;
Set against the gritty urban scenescape of Ottawa with a pounding techno soundtrack, RUN HAIR GIRL RUN is a sizzling, cunning exasperating thriller that explores the life-altering impact of seemingly inconsequential actions.
Beautiful, hip and young: poor Layla has 5 minutes to locate a self-absorbed film star's missing bag containing a special comb and hair spray. If she can't find the bag, Jake Jaek will leave the set, the film will flop and Layla will get canned.
A pulse-raising race against time, RUN HAIR GIRL RUN employs a starting array of stolen and cliched techniques to present three different scenarios, all beginning with a single split-second decision Layla makes.

Yes, it is a parody on the amazing, award winning German film RUN LOLA RUN. Our film was produced for a local film festival here in Ottawa called Digi60. Where each year selected filmmakers are invited to participate. But with this festival there is always a catch...where all the films submitted have to be produced within 60 days from concept to DVD and for each festival all the films have to have one common trait. That year all the films had to start with the same opening line, " This is just how I pictured hell." and they had to end with line, "Step out of the way, I wouldn't want you to get splattered".
Our film was well received and this film is often invited to participate in festivals.. I unfortunately couldn't make it to TO for this one. Hey did anyone out there see it? Let me know....

All the best..keep it real.

"People are more fun than anybody" -Dorothy Parker

Me with writers bloc....Actually I'm not blocked when it comes to writing about nothing/anything in particular but sitting down to structure..yikes!! "Reality is a crutch for people who can't cope with drugs" -Lily Tomlin

So here I am, another Sassy Canadian gal and I ready to share!

This is my first blog and I don't really know what to say. Maybe I should start with a little about why I created a blog. Well a few of my friends are on this and love it and this year is a year of firsts for me. Last January I decided to put myself out there..jump off, take chances, expose myself...Like I in April I got on MSN, joined a dating site, invested in myself by taking a bunch of difficult courses to advance my skills, and the big one..I've opened myself up emotionally. And you know what, so far (cross your fingers PLS!!) I have had results....My skills have definitely improved, I'm allowing others to see the real me, the good and the bad and the dating stuff...well I was single for 2 years . It's scary really...I haven't felt this vunerable since I was a kid but all these mixed up emotions I have remind me everyday that I am alive and it feels great! I'm sitting in it -all of it -the good and the bad.

So there you go...a little about me for now...and more to come!

Have a great day eveybody. A Quote to leave you pondering..

He who laughs, lasts.
SH.